…by a Skype chat with VuyiQu! I guess I hardly ever explain to anybody what my passions are and what I plan to do to keep them ignited. Well, last night a laid out a plan that I did not really know I had. Its quite exciting really. Positive energies are important in validating one’s dreams. Its almost as to say that you’re not crazy, that it can actually be done. One just has to throw in the bravery and the confidence required to make it happen, then you got the main ingredients right thur!!!
…“A Blues For Nina”
Say baby, can I be your slave
I’ve got to admit girl, you’re the shit girl
And I’m diggin’ you like a grave
Now do they call you daughter to the spinnin post, or
Or maybe Queen of 2,000 moons
Sister to the distant, yet risin’ star
Is your name Yimmy-Ya
Oh hell nah, it’s got to be Oshun
Ooo, is that a smile me put on your face child
Wide as a field of Jasmine and Glover
Talk that talk honey, walk that walk money
Hound legs that’ll spank Jehovah
Shit, who am I?
It’s not important
But they call me brother to the Night
And right now
I’m the blues in your left thigh
Tryin to become the funk in your right
Who am I?
I’ll be whoever you say
But right now, I’m the sight raped hunter
Blindly pursuing you as my prey
And I just wanna give you injections, of sublime erections
And get you to dance to my rhythm
Make you dream archaetypes, of black angels in flight
Upon wings, of distorted, contorted, metaphoric jism
Come on slim
Fuck yo’ man, I ain’t worried about him
It’s you who I wanna step to my scene
Cause rather than deal with the fallacy
Of this dry ass reality
I rather dance and romance your sweet ass, in a wet dream
Who am I?
Well they all call me brother to the Night
And right now, I’m the blues in your left thigh
Trying to become the funk in your right
Is that alright
From the Love Jones film.
…an understatement if I want to describe the weekend I just had. Electives are in full swing. Not so many days after my excruciatingly painful proposal hand in, I had to start with my elective, Advanced Valuation Techniques. Finished the exam at 2:30am. Take home exam, thats why. But glad I took this elective. I’m so much more because of it. More what you ask. More me, an extended version of an old me. Like an extension to a house. The next big version release is coming soon.
…as luck would have it, I injure my knee just before getting here. I did say I want to chill at home, but then I wanted the choice of going out if I feel like it. This is going to proper ground me, unless I need to go to hospital, to get a crutch or something…and then there is this headache. I don’t do headaches. Where did it come from, its not helping the situation. Maybe its from the gum. I hardly ever chew gum, so ya, possibility. Ohh well, here is to enjoying Polokwane, chill with the folks as I hardly ever do these days, especially my pops, hardly ever see him since he decided to take his boots off. Tomorrow is another day. lets see whats in store….oh its tomorrow already. Oh well…
…the struggle continues, and its not a struggle to get the content, or the struggle to understand the concepts and the associated ability of using them to build an argument. It is the struggle to stay focused on one task and finish it. I must say, I have the attention span of a gold fish, ok, maybe not that bad, but I really need to get to grips with finishing tasks. Step 1, step 2, step 3,…It can’t be all that hard, can it? Ok, lets give it a shot.
Here’s to the crazy ones
The round pegs in the square holes.
The ones who see things differently.
They’re not fond of rules.
And they have no respect for the status quo.
You can quote them, disagree with them,
glorify or vilify them.
About the only thing you can’t…do is ignore them.
Because they change things.
They push the human race forward.
And while some see them as the crazy ones,
we see genius.
Because the people who are crazy enough…to think
they can change the world,
are the ones who do.“
I’m fond of them
This is extracted from the Apple “Think Different” commercial
*friends, family and any present company considered to be crazy included
…,it comes and goes. Right now I’m under immense pressure to complete my research proposal on Private Equity and Venture Capital, a subject I know very little about but immensely interested in. At this point all forms of inspiration are welcome. Words and songs usually do the trick. A Miles Davis track, especially So What (the soundtrack to this entry by the way), a Sarah Vaughan, a Nina Simone, some Brand New Heavies and James Brown to funky it up a lil’. This is what gets the inspiration going. What also does the trick, as mentioned, is words, poignant words that have stood the test of time. Some words that stood out for me are in this profound piece by Marianne Williamson - Our Greatest Fear
it is our light not our darkness that most frightens us
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other
people won’t feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.
So here is to that glimmer of inspiration that will become a steady shine that inspires other glimmers to lighten up!!
…I’ve been here for years. Actually longer than a bunch of some punks going on like they’ve been doing in from day one. Fine, you’re doing it better now, but you not better than my boy Eldee!! He kills it, and you, so shut the fuck up. I do the other thing that I’m doing now way better than you, so die already! PUNK! You’re about to be assimilated!
…with the days flying by. Leading up to the 9th of November. Research submission day! Can not wait. In the mean time though. There is the space between now and then that I have to deal with. What is that going to filled with??
Firstly though, a little reminiscing I remember clearly how I got to where I am now. I did some planning years ago toward changing my then job and it resulted in some fantastic results; self realisation, self actualisation, knowledge of self, etc. From then on I really believed that planning is one of the most underrated things on the face of the planet earth. Actually in the universe. To get back to the point, it is that I got to this point through planning my way here.
Lately however, I feel like I have just been getting along. I don’t know if the rigor of studying has set itself in as habit. Well, I actually think it has. As the time draws closer to the 9th of November 2011, I do feel that planning for the next stage should be well underway. There is a lot to be achieved, lets go get!
Aah here we go! Ah here we go…
Almost Zen like.
One look takes word out of mouth, all yo can do is mumble.
interaction is a joy, character full of bubbles,
With subtle softness around the vestibulum oris,
make me want to make contact with my own vestibule,
As the proverbial saying goes, one day is one day.
One day is one day, it will be closer than close.